just letting it out

I just need to get it out. I went to get my personal belongings today. 'She' granted me permission and gave me times when I could come. So I chose today, this morning. Since we do not speak, she just said I could come for my things. I had no idea what that would include. I knew it wasn't furniture. And it turned out as I expected in terms of what 'she' thought was mine. I am getting ahead of myself. Let me tell you how it went.

I arrived and as the garage doors are glass I could see boxes and things. Her car was gone and her sister's car was in the driveway. I went to the door and her sister met me on the front porch. I was given a sheet to sign saying I was picking up personal belongings. And I was given my spare key and the title to my car. Finally! I thought that was a plus. Her sister then went in and opened the garage door. There were about 25, mostly small boxes and some other items. It didn't take long at all. We loaded it up and were done. I rang the door bell so she would know to close the garage door. Done.

I took my friends out to breakfast for helping. Then I took the stuff to my parents to store in the basement. Some of it I brought back to the tree house. Some books, some art, my sketchbook from Finland, and a few other things.

Here is where her true colors shine through. I have sort of collected pens for several years. I like nice writing utensils. I had a case of them. Many of them given to me by her at various gift giving occasions. She took most of them, the ones she bought for me, the expensive ones. Things that were gifts from her and her family have been kept. I won't fight for them because a few pens and some other things don't matter. It just goes to show you who she is and the kind of person she is.

It is good to have that behind me. The next step is the settlement. And then I never have to deal with her again.

The best part of this was that LT called to check on me this morning. And let me wake her up after I picked everything up to make sure I was okay. That made me feel so good. It is great to have someone in my life who cares and loves in this way. A person who wants me to be me and enjoys all of me. I am grateful for her.

And now...I am wiped out. Tired from getting worked up. My body is a little sore from a few heavy boxes. I will soon eat, and watch a movie and go to bed early and just relax. Of course, I get to talk to LT soon, so that is a bonus.

Thanks for listening.